I went to the place we first kissed tonight. I sat there and thought.
I thought and I thought.
Now what I thought about could have been better, I'll admit that, but it made me realize something.
It made me realize how much I waste my time on you.
How much I waste my time trying to IMPRESS you.
How much I waste my time trying tiger your approval.
To get your love.
To get a kiss or something to help me go on.
How I waste my time telling you you're beautiful, because you don't even think twice about it.
How I waste my time trying to get a smile out of you because you can't smile at me for God. Knows. Why.
I thought about how I waste my time trying to get you back, when I know I never will.
I waste my time telling you I love you because I know you don't love me too. At least....
Not the way I do....
I just want to hold your hand. Link your fingers into mine. Hold it tight and get so close to you.
So close That I can feel your heart
Beat.
Beat.
Beating in your chest.
I waste my time thinking about that. Wishing and waiting for you to want me back.
I waste my time writing this, and I waste my time hurting myself emotionally because of you.
I'm doing it to myself. And I wish I could go back.
To the day I first kissed you.
Before it all went to hell.
When I knew I could call you mine and know what it's like to have someone love me back.
Oh take me back.
Take me back to the start.
This is very good. Props.
ReplyDelete"How I waste my time telling you you're beautiful, because you don't even think twice about it. "
Why so sad? I want you to be pissed a little. Or funny a little. Or indifferent a little. Sometimes the best revenge is living well. You ain't getting her back with pity, I'll tell you that. It's unbecoming.
ReplyDeleteI went to the place we first kissed tonight. All the flowers were dead. (It's still sad, but it's less pathetic...if that makes sense. Now I'm just coming across like a jerk............)
Naw naw Nelson I get it. But I do agree. Ill be a bit more pissed. Haha (;
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