I don't wanna be heard, I just wanna be listened to.

I have a strong testimony of 11:11 wishes. And I find it funny how we become religious only when it's convenient. How we can sin on the weekends, but sing praise in church on Sunday. 

We find ourselves praying only when we need something from our God, and scream at him when he doesn't give it to us, like our lives are supposed to be perfect if we say a prayer right after murder. 

We fall to our knees so much more when tears fall down our face. We pray to a God that we don't believe in, because she's got time while I've got freedom. 

I just find this double standard so funny, and ask why we make promises in the first place if we aren't going to keep them. Now maybe the reason nobody has kept promises they made me is because I couldn't keep my promises until now, and even when I try, I still end up in tears. 

Because God, my knees are getting bruised, and my heart is getting sore, so please if you won't answer my prayer, at least read this letter.